School Blues

Aloha!


I really wanted to try and post at least once a week, but school and other factors (my laptop) were working against me. I don't know why :(. But anyways, I'll try and be more diligent with my blog posts.


What I wanted to write about were school blues (duh). About what happens (in my opinion) when you're almost finished with your degree and you feel less than thrilled about the path you have pursued. I can speak about this in great detail because I am unfortunately in that sort of predicament. As I type I'm listening to a mix done by one of my friends who is also studying law but from the dedication he put into the mix, would have been happier being a DJ. You know, if it was a real job. Don't get me wrong, of course being a DJ is a real job. When you're saving up for a new phone. Or maybe a vacation, or just something to do over the summer. Can you really see anyone being a DJ full time saying they're saving up to buy a house? Or a car? Most DJ's these days, do it as a side job. It's something they are passionate about, so they can get to be themselves on the weekends or at night, when they escape from The Man  the grind. Most times they do it so they can have a little extra cash in their pockets. I think I'straying though. My predicament is something of the sort, except I have no side job (anyone looking for a personal shopper?) Once I complete my law degree, I will be doing that. Law. Why? Well, I have a slight penchant for spending money like it was the last day on Earth. It's a habit that, I've tried breaking, by staying away from the places that would tempt me to spend money. But that only works for physical stores. Curse you online shopping. My point is, I studied law because it was the easiest (I use this in the loosest possible sense)  path to get what I want (money and lots). My inner dialog  went something like this:


 I love to shop! How can I shop lots? You need money! How do you make money in the Caribbean besides medicine or banking  (no stomach for blood, no head for numbers) ? Why, law of course! Proceeds with law! This is fun!  I hate it D:. But I want money. Curses! Sigh. *sucks it up and continues to study*.


My predicament is clear nuh true. But why didn't you try an alternative you may ask. I suck at everything. Lol. I lie. I am passionate about something. It's fashion. But, but, fashion designers make money. They have items that the price is on request for (a.k.a if you have to ask you can't afford it). But, I suck at drawing D:. Journalism? You could be a fashion writer! Sike. I'd be in the same position as law for one thing and for another, I wouldn't be able to live in the Caribbean which I shan't ever stray from (except when I retire and live in a chateau in France lol). So in order to stay in the Caribbean, and make money so I can spend it, I must suck it up and do law. Nothing is more disheartening of course, and I do feel a tad bit guilty that perhaps I, in choosing to do law and it wasn't my ULTIMATE passion, crushed someone else's dreams. How? Well, my country, Antigua, only accepts two people each year to pursue a law degree. Could it be possible that I, being better qualified than a person who absolutely wanted to study law, shoved them out of the way? Immediately following this thought, I'm not going to lie, I thought "tough luck, survival of the fittest". 


Now don't get me wrong. I do like law a little. Not über much. But a little. Why I chose the path in the first place when I was obviously good at something else (biology, but remember the whole blood thing, yick) was because I was enchanted by the world of  *drumroll* real estate. It's kind of like a mixture of law and shopping. but with houses and land. :O Eureka. A compromise. Until then, until I have money in my bank account to run around maniacally and spend  have purchasing power equal to no man, I have to put my head down and continue to study. Which is where I leave you. 


Besos  


Nneka